Yesterday, I talked about how my next choices were crucial. To build habitual momentum in a healthy direction, I needed to act in accordance to strengthening my neural pathways associated with healthful choices.
Alas, I didn’t really do that.
Let … Continue reading
Yesterday was a decent step in the right direction, as far as days go for someone desperately struggling to transcend depression.
I wrote upon awakening, honoring my commitment to re-engage in a daily writing habit.
Then I spent most … Continue reading
I was twenty-one years old on a perfect late 2002 summer eve in Westland, MI, meeting up with some new friends.
My initial idea was that we’d get blitzed on liquor, as was my social norm back then. However, my … Continue reading
For those who struggle with self-limiting coping behaviors like binge eating and anesthetic alcohol consumption.
It can be easy to understand coping poorly with a rough day of rejection, dejection, and mayhem.
It might be trickier to comprehend being triggered … Continue reading
My first thoughts while holding a physical copy of my newest book, Realtime Recovery, Relapse, Revolution:
1. Wow, it’s as thick and heavy as most academic textbooks I’ve had.
2. And it’s sexy. The colors didn’t print
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I am aware that some of my views on various mind-expanding substances make some of my writing inaccessible to people with strong aversions to these notions that psychedelics and similar entheogens may have an important role in the future of … Continue reading
The following words were written from a deeply suicidal state of mind, at some point in late May or early June of 2017.
It was intended as a suicide note.
In a welcome twist of irony, ventilating all … Continue reading
It can be tricky to master the balance between standing up for your authentic truth and being sensitively compassionate towards those who do not embrace that truth.
It’s tricky for me, anyway. Mastering balance in general is a true ordeal.… Continue reading
I’ve spent these last two years in a downward spiral of depression. My life has gotten to a deeply hopeless point, and I am in desperate need to shake things up.
It’s sort of like I’m fresh … Continue reading
I’ve been depressed for about a year and a half.
This is probably the longest I’ve been depressed without any kind of substantial period of reprieve.
And even if it isn’t the longest, this is the worst. Because I’m older, … Continue reading